Virginity

The other day I was watching TV and caught an ear full when I heard that a grad student was auctioning off her virginity. She was introduced to this idea when conducting research for a project. This concept inspired her and thought she'd try it out, she thought by doing the auction it would be good research for her project and also help pay for grad school.

The two commentators had opossing views, one thought it was a good idea in the name of "research" while the other thought it was ridiculous to lower your standards and make money off of this activity.

Wow, the extremes people will go through to make a little extra cash.

Fall Fun Day

Today the entire family headed to Jonomac Orchard. It was a gorgeous fall day and we all began by picking apples. Trying new apples was yummy and getting a variety to eat and bake with was an adventure. Once we picked our half of bushel we had some apple donuts and slushies to cool us down before we headed to the corn maze.

The corn maze was shaped in a huge apple to celebrate the orchards 25th anniversary. There were numbers and words carved into the maze as well. As we have done in the past, we divide the family up into two teams. The boys which includes my dad, Matthew and Mark. Then we have the girls which includes my mom, Ashley, my sister-in-law Angela and myself. The goal is to get through the maze, figure out all six clues in the maze and get the appropriate hole punches, and finish with the fastest time. The boys started out 5 minutes ahead of the girls. Once we were in there we had a blast and the competitive juices kicked in. At times we could hear the boys team and knew it was going to be a close race. I am proud to say that the girls team kicked butt. We all worked together and had just such a fun and exhilarating time and can't wait to do it again.

We ended the evening by coming home and making caramel apples. The caramel was way too thick so we all have sore jaws from chewing. This is a tradition I want to keep!

Last week was speed bumps and this week...potholes?

Not sure where to begin to capture my thoughts and emotions. Well lets see, I figured that while I was waiting to see if I will be trying to move to CA again I thought I would be a substitute teacher. There were lots of good reasoning behind this being a good idea so I went forward with it. After I've completed all the paper work and ready to turn it all in I was informed that I would not be able to start subbing until November. WHAT?!?!

Seriously, I feel like every avenue I'm trying to go down the bottom keeps dropping out. I'm getting frusrtated and discouraged and it's harder to trust that God is in control.

A little laugh

The other day at work, 2 funny sayings were said.

Number 1: Gina, do you know how to make macaroni and cheese? If I could have only responded with something sarcastic like no at culinary school they don't teach me how to boil water!

Number 2: The dad was telling his 3 year old daughter that before going to bed she needed to change her panties and the 5 year old chimed in with or you can wear no panties like mommy! I about lost it! Then the dad replied with honey I know we don't keep secrets but that is one secret you can keep.

The past few days

Well, it's been a few days and the dust is settling. I have to admit those first few days of hearing the news that I wasn't moving to CA on Monday was a little heart wrenching and confusing. Tears of sadness were wept and the emotional drainage continued with having to tell family and friends what had happened.

I'm glad to say that a corner has been turned. It is SO interesting to me to see how immediately God is placing ideas, possible work opportunities, and people in my path to encourage me as I prepare to stay in IL for a few more weeks while I figure out my next step. I can honestly say that I am excited to stay here and see how these weeks will pan out. I'm reminded that God has His watchful eye on me and definitely cares for me and will continue to provide.

Bump in the road

I cannot believe that I'm all ready to move to California. I've cleaned out all of my storage stuff, purged things from my closet, had the brakes done on my car, all of my friends were contacted of where I would be spending the nights along the drive out, a suitcase of clothes was sent with a friend who was traveling to CA this weekend, I met up with all of my friends and family to say those good-bye's...AND THEN I get a text message from the lady I'm renting my room from saying that she wants me to postpone my trip because a ill and unemployed family member showed up at her house and is staying in my room.

I was completely shocked!!! I stayed calm when I read this but today I'm a bit ticked off. I realize that this is not the time I'm suppose to go out there, but I still want to move there, but I feel like I am back to square one. I felt like as long as I had a place to live (and I wanted to live with someone from my friends church or friends of friends) that that would be enough and I could look for a job and find a church and get settled. Now the other roommate possibilities that I had are taken and now I don't know where to look or how this is all going to pan out or when I will get there.

Wow, now there is a bunch of uncertainty...Please God give me your peace and continue to guide me of where you want me to be.

House Sold

Last week was a bit rough. I was emotionally drained and sometimes I wondered how I would keep on trucking. In the midst of it all, my parents received some news that they received a contract on their house. Their house has been on the market for over a year and nothing has happened. Everyone was so pleasantly surprised by the contract. The wheeling and dealing between both parties worked and my parents have sold their house. WAHOO!!!

I'm so happy for them. The tricky part is that they have to be out in 3 WEEKS!!! Insanity if you ask me, but possible. A friend of mine just moved on Friday, so Saturday I was over there picking up moving boxes to start the packing. The packing party began and boy oh boy we got SO much accomplished this weekend. (I felt like I didn't have a weekend, but what are you going to do!!!) My family is off to a good start and I'm happy I could help relieve some of that stress. And this was a great distraction for me....

The past week

I have thoroughly enjoyed the past week or so. Nothing crazy has happened but I have had the privilege of getting together with friends I haven't seen in a while, teachers that I use to work with, parents of kids whom I've taught, and then just my normal good close friends. I love getting the opportunity to meet up for coffee or grab dessert or whatever. Relationships to me are so important and I love getting to know people. I'm looking forward to more of these important encounters in my life in the next few weeks.

Thanks to those of you who I was able to spend some great quality time with!!!!

The OLYMPICS.....

Make me want to:

-get into amazing shape

-travel the world to see some of these countries I've never heard of

-stay glued to the TV all day because I love the sports, competition, enthusiasm

I LOVE THE OLYMPICS!!!!!

The Mail

Today I received a piece of mail for assisted living and memory care. Yes, assisted living and memory care...I know I am turning 30 this year but come on. Who sent this to me as a joke?!?!?! I was being notified that I could go check out my new home and get free refreshments. On the brochure there was a picture of this elderly woman who might even be my neighbor!

Do you ever wonder how in the world they got your name and address? How and why do I get these crazy pieces of mail? We all sure did get a kick out of it!

Viva la Vida....

COLDPLAY!!!! At one point in the concert they begin to exit the stage, as thought it appeared, but they don't. They ran right up the aisle we were sitting in. We all were so in shock that we couldn't get our cameras out or touch them. After they ran past us they headed over to sing a set of songs, this is how close we were to them. Amazing.

The eight of us standing outside the United Center after the concert. What a night...so fun...to hard to say with words.

I love this shot. Each song had their own lighting, backgrounds....it was a fun touch. There were also these huge balls hanging from the ceiling, some moved up and down while other remained motionless. But these balls would portray different images of the band playing, the crowd dancing, media clips....Very cool

Yes, here is Chris Martin. The concert was incredible. The band is unbelievably talented, I have a new found appreciation for their unique nature!

Coldplay opened with "Violet Hill" from their new album, great tune to get the crowd going. They played pretty much every song off of "Viva la Vida". Many of the old favorites were thrown in there as well. They were filming for a video during the song "Lost" which is one of my favorites. I can't wait to see the video!!!

I will definitely go to another Coldplay concert, my expectations were exceeded! Love that.

Have you ever?

So yesterday, Saturday, my entire day was booked. I had a tire rotation appointment in the morning and then I was working the rest of the day. Well, that all changed.

I did start off my day at the tire shop, which let's be honest...I've had some problems with this place and my tires so starting off the day there didn't seem like much fun. BUT, I was pleasantly surprised when they got me in and out in less than 20 minutes (I've spent hours there). So my day started off great.

Then I headed to the theatre to catch "The Dark Knight". I was looking forward to seeing it, but everyone kept saying how great it was and I was wondering how I would bring my high expectations down, so I wouldn't be disappointed. I didn't have too, I loved the movie!!! The acting was great, the stunts and special affects rocked, it was shot in Chicago, and Heath Ledger was AMAZING!!!!

Lastly, my dad, brother, and I headed down to the city to catch the White Sox game. Oh it was great, my first of the season. We ate a little pizza before the game and enjoyed a night game at U.S. Cellular. Despite the loss, we had a great time.

Despite how the day would have originated, I love how it turned out even better than I could have expected. Now that was a fantastic day in my book!

Join me

Without getting into what I'm experiencing and feeling, I was listening to this song "Came to my Rescue" and tonight I'm making this my prayer.

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is Yours

My whole life
I place in Your hands
God of mercy
Humbled I bow down
In Your presence at Your throne

I called You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where You are

In my life
Be lifted high
In our world
Be lifted high
In our love
Be lifted high

$28,000

Pregnancy....well for one I'm not pregnant nor will I ever be for a while. But I'm intrigued by this phenomenon but really cannot relate to women who have been pregnant, can't get pregnant, or are trying to get pregnant. BUT, I do have some common sense.

I saw Martha Stewart's daughter on a talk show. She is 42, divorced and really wanting to have a child. So she is going to extreme measures to best prepare her body to get pregnant at her age. That means tons of monthly ultrasounds, lots of drugs, shots, doctor appointments...and all of this for a cost of $28,000 PER MONTH!!!

Are you kidding me? I mean, come on! Yes, she is dying to have a child and she is trying really hard for this to happen (which I have not been in her shoes so I don't fully get it). But maybe, just maybe it's not suppose to happen or happen this way or at this time. OR is that really the smartest way to spend 28 grand every month?!

As you might have picked up upon, this pissed me off. I don't even need to go into orphans in Africa not having food to eat, but as a person who works hard each month to make it, then to hear this chick spending tons of money in one month that I don't even make in a year on drugging up her body so that she has a healthy egg to impregnate made me sick.

Am I off my rocker? Is there something that I am missing? Oh, please do tell.

Spoken too

I feel torn in so many directions. As I search for teaching jobs I am running into the realization that there are few far and in between jobs available...which I am ok with. I know that something will happen, I feel that God has allowed me so many different and unique experiences in my life that He is opening up a new avenue for me. I can't wait to see where and what I will be doing. Despite this excitement, there are days of confusion, frustration, questions...A friend gave me a verse, Jeremiah 33:3, "Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." I am claiming and clinging to this during this season of my life.

I can't wait...

~for football season to start

~to move into my own place

~to find out how The Food Network will impact my little brother since he is really getting into some of the shows

~see how my sister will do in drivers ed

The Taste

1. I love going there to watch people, nearly did not have enough time for this.

2. Why the hell do people purchase fruit with their tickets? I'm talking about watermelon and grapes, not the chocolate covered bananas. I mean, you do not go to the taste if you are on a diet or trying to stay on one. Go get yourself a funnel cake for crying out loud!!!

3. As a single girl, it amazes me to see the couples there. How did they begin dating? Or I can't believe those two are together, I would have never have thought that.

More later

The next 4 days

I'm so excited for what will transpire over the 4th of July weekend. This is what I love and live for....fun and friends! I can't wait to attend Ribfest and see ReoSpeedwagon, go to bbqs, attend the taste of chicago, see old friends from college, and have a bachelorette finale party. I would love squeezing in a Sox game too. Wahooo!!! Let the fun begin.

A funny kid comment

One of the days I was watching my boys during my overnight stay, we had a rough day. The kiddos were not getting along, crying, fighting, and getting into trouble. As I was talking to the five year old we were having a discussion about choices and consequences. I asked him if he knew the different consequences that he could face. He said, "yes" and then I asked him to tell me what they were. He said, "he could be put in a timeout, get a spanking, be sent to his room, or get a tatoo." I said, "a tatoo?" He said, "yes". I asked him to explain what he meant and he said, "he would get a tatoo of his dad's hand on him!"

Man it was hard to not burst out laughing!

People amaze me

Over the weekend I went to Centennial Beach with the 3 boys that I was watching for a few nights. They were 5, 3, and 9 months old. I loved going to the beach!!! I could stand in the shallow water and hang with the boys or we could head to the HUGE sand area and play. It was a great set up since I had my hands full.

At the beach they provide some of those tall umbrellas. A few announcements came across informing the guests that since it is windy, they recommend that all umbrellas be closed. Of course, there were those that didn't listen and remained open.

While I was standing in the water I saw this huge umbrella begin to fall. A life guard went running over to make sure no one was hurt. The umbrella top had flipped open the wrong way so now 2 life guards were trying to bend the bars back in so that they could close it down. The lady who did not listen to the announcement continued just sitting there watching these guys struggle with this umbrella for 5 minutes. I could not believe the audacity of this lady, she just had this smile on her face and continued to be a spectator.

Don't you think, since you were responsible for this problem that you would help? I don't understand people sometimes. And for some reason this lady got under my skin. I wanted to say to her "Get off your lazy, arrogant *** and help fix the umbrella (ella, ella, eh, eh)!!!"

2 things

Thing #1:
The other day I was going out and was looking for something in my closet to wear. A few months ago I bit the bullet and bought some fancy jeans, you know jeans that you could wear with nice boots or jeans that you can dress up. What is interesting about this is that I usually only buy things that I need right now or if I don't they have to be on sale and these jeans fit neither of those categories. I forgot I had them and was so happy to find them in my closet. The little things in life that put a smile on my face.

Things #2:
I was out for a walk the other morning and ran into a family whose son I had tutored. As we recognized each other and talked for a second, the son came to the door followed by their big lab dog. The little boy opened the door and to my surprise, the dog come charging at me. Now I don't mind dogs, but as I saw this huge dog coming at me I was a bit nervous and was preparing myself in case she jumped on me. Instead of jumping when she got to me she slobbered all over me. I am totally grossed out by this, why did this lady think it would be ok for her dog to bolt out and then drool all over me??? I don't think that animal lovers get non animal lovers.

Don't get it

If there is an EMPTY dishwasher next to the kitchen sink...why is it so hard for people to rinse off their dirty dish(es) and just pop in the dishwasher instead of letting it pile up in the sink?!?!?!?! With all of the different roommates I have had, I have never been able to figure this out.

Festivals

I love this time of year because there is so much great stuff going on. All of the festivals and outside activities are getting on their way and I cannot wait to partake in them. A few that I am looking forward to are Ribfest, Taste of Chicago, Navy Pier, dancing in the park, going to some baseball games and barbequing. I am ready to have FUN, FUN, FUN!!!!

As requested....

Well blogger totally put these pictures in the wrong order, so I will tell you about this fun time from the end to the beginning. At the end of our time, they dip you into the ocean. We were in there for a few seconds to get refreshed before being brought back up into the air. Ashley and I are at our max height in these two pictures. It was so peaceful and relaxing to look at the blue/green ocean and mountains!!! Lastly, Ashley and I are just being pulled up into the sky. They let out 600 feet of rope, we just kept going and going. It was really smooth sailing. I have always wanted to go parasailing and am so glad that I fulfilled one of my goals!!

Our Family Trip

What a treat it was to be away. And to be honest, the time did not fly by, which I have to say was awesome. We were able to soak up every minute.

We flew into Puerto Rico a day early and hung out. After a 2 mile walk in the sweltering heat, we arrived at the shopping to find out we only had 30 minutes to shop. It was so sad considering I had blisters on my feet from the journey. Despite that it was nice to see San Juan and some of the cultural aspects of it.

The following day we boarded the ship. It was awesome!!! There was rock climbing, mini golf, a great workout facility, pools, hot tubs, ice skating, bb courts, movie theatre, casino, shopping, and much more. There was always something to do. We stopped at 4 wonderful islands where we shopped and hung out at the beaches: Aruba, Curacao, St. Maarten, and St. Thomas. I enjoyed parasailing and being the passenger while my sister FLEW on the jet ski. We had no internet, TV, newspaper, or phone and it was absolutely wonderful. There was a ton of food to eat, great evening entertainment, and a very hospitable cruise staff that went out of their way to help us.

I was thankful that our family had a great time. I will post pics once I finish getting them all together.

While I'm away

There are a bunch of things to do still before I leave Saturday morning for my family vacation. I know it will all get done, but I'm feeling a bit stressed. Ugh!

I'm praying that while I'm away from "life" that God would reveal His next step for me, that I would know when I get back what I need to do, what doors to walk through... I would love it if when you think of me to join me in praying that too.

Thanks!

Memorial Day Weekend

It was nice to have a long weekend. It was filled with work, relaxation, a barbeque, spending time outside, and running errands. My family and I leave for vacation in a few days and with this week being so busy it is going to fly by. I am trying to work as much as I can so I have some spending cash for the trip and then you know it's time to do the girlie stuff: manicure, pedicure...I have been waiting forever to do those. I am dreaming of the beach, good food, fun activities, and seeing new things. I wish I could be on a vacation all the time!!!

Soft, calm voice

As from previous posts it has been stated that my life is full of confusion right now. I am here to report some good news. Well, it's not that I found a job for the summer or a job for the fall or determined where I will be living or anything like that. What I do have to say is that God is faithful. At this point in my life, all I can cling onto is that God has a purpose and plan and to keep my eyes fixed on Him. Is that easy, hell NO?!?! But I continue to push through it. The other day I was listening to some worship music, and to those of you who know me are going to find this crazy, but I have been listening to Christian radio and worship music more frequently. Due to where I am at, I need to be reminded of who God is and what He is doing in my life on a regular basis so I don't go crazy, and Christian music is helping me with that.

Ok, back to what I was saying, a song came on and I was worshipping God with my hands raised towards Him (while I was driving) I was gently reminded to take one day at a time and that He will show me each and every day what I need to be doing and even maybe what I don't need to be doing. This helped put my thoughts, emotions, and actions at ease. Did it cure everything...no, but I remind myself of that time and hold onto that promise that God has for me. This was such a simple reminder that we have heard a million times, but this time I felt it and needed to apply it immediately!

This is a testing time and God is preparing me for something. He is refining me and molding me for something. I cannot wait to figure out what that is! My faith will be strengthened and I am thankful.

Goin' hollywood

So recently I have been interested in the some of the trends that are going on in Hollywood. My focus has been towards the "going out attire".

Now don't get me wrong, I really enjoy shopping and having my own cute style. But I feel the need to change or spice things up.

Those of you who know me, know that I am not a clubbin' girl or anything of that nature, BUT the style that is interesting me right now are the dresses (of course classy and not hoochie) that fit that scene. I would not purchase these because I have no need for them except to stare at them in my closet.

BUT I do. We are going on a family vacation...a cruise. We have to be dressed up for dinners. And guess what...the styles I have been following will be perfect for the trip! And I realized that I could use these for the birthday bash in Vegas in a few months. Double whammiiieeee!!!!

Today I found some adorable dresses and just purchasing them made me feel so sophisticated, trendy, my age, and ready to take on the world. I cannot wait to wear them! Now, I just need to get some great jewlery!

Happenings of Monday night

What a great night of tv last night!!! The Bachelor and Hills finale. It was so sad to see them come to an end.

How adorable is that Shayne! I am so glad that Matt picked her. I picture this couple to be so widely followed like the Bachelorette, Trista and Ryan. I do have to say if I was Shayne, I don't think I would like to be called monkey!

And to have to wait until Aug. 18 to watch the Hills again is going to kill me. What is it about that show that just hooks me in? Maybe it's just a bunch of girls living in LA, enjoying life, and having fun.

Keep on truckin'

I have come to realize that I DO NOT like the place I am at in life right here at the moment. I try really hard that whatever I am doing or wherever I may be to enjoy the moment, take in all that I can, and not wish anything away. Currently the opposite is true for me. This season that God has placed me in, is not one that I am enjoying. If this is a test, I am trying to push through but I feel like I am in quick sand, sinking further and further away.

I don't feel like myself now, my emotions are all over the board, I have a negative outlook at times, I expect things and my hopes are dashed since my expectations haven't been met, I have too many decisions to make, pressure is building up, I'm confused and lost, I feel like I have been let down...and the list goes on and on and on

God where are you?

I know you are there, right by my side, but I certainly don't feel you or see you.

REAL WORLD

Usually I am way into the MTV show "The Real World" but this season I just haven't paid much attention to it. This morning when I was working out this show was on. Man, watching this made my work out go so fast, which was a huge added bonus. It definitely hooked my attention and so I figured I would watch the next episode which was tonight.

There is a guy on the show named Joey. He is a body builder who is huge, has battled with drugs and alcohol, and has poor self esteem. I know this is going to sound so cheezy and you can mock me all you want, but watching him breaks my heart!!!! To see past the physical appearance and see a person who is in so much pain was sad to see. He talks about his past and his family and how horrible it is. I was reminded that there are people all around who are struggling and going through a variety of issues. People have tough backgrounds, rough families, and sad situations. Even though on the outside it may seem that everything is grand, it may not be.

This is moving me to pray that they would find true hope.

It's that time

I love this time of year because the weather is suppose to be turning warmer , the flowers are blooming, and baseball season has started. I also hate this time of year because, where I am at in my life, I have to figure out what job or jobs I will be working from now until the end of summer to pay the bills. I am tired of this! My role in the past has been a nanny. Which will most likely happen again. But now it seems to be a problem of WHO will I work for? Usually I have some options and now there aren't that many. I am a bit stressed out by it all. I am praying that God will give me peace and the more people I talk with about my situation, maybe someone will know of someone who needs a responsible and loving girl like me to watch their kiddos!

Conspire

I just have to brag a bit about my dear, dear friend Amy. She is in charge of leading an amazing children's conference that is being held this week. The amount of time, creativity, and leadership she has put into making this an amazing conference is unbelievable.

Today was the first day. As someone who works with kids, I was encouraged and spurred on to go out and meet students where they are at in life. As an educator, flooding their minds with tons of information just won't cut it. It is so imporatant to see who they are, get what they are doing and understand how they are acting. I am feeling re-energized and filled up to go make an impact on student's lives.

Soon and very soon

It's been one of those weeks. The kind that never end, that you want to put behind you, forget about, disregard...you get the picture.

I am looking forward to a new beginning tomorrow. I am in need of a fresh start and a good outcome.

This week I will wrap up my last week of teaching....WAHOOO!!!! And then I have a night class this week and next and then I am officially done. The time has flown by, I can't believe it is almost over. It is a great feeling to be so close to the end, but then I am nervous for the next part of my life. I hate that I am anxious, worried, and nervous about finding the right teaching job in the right place at the right time. I am ready to have ONE job that has a steady income and insurance. But in the midst of all this chaos I also have to figure out a job for the next four months until teaching begins. I keep telling myself....one day at a time....one day at a time!!!

Disgust

As I have said before I am working out and eating healthy. I am trying to lose a little more weight before I go on our family vacation in 7 weeks. I am motivated to work harder to reach my goal.

In the past few weeks I have encountered more and more people older than me, let's say above 40, who are going on diets and just not satisfied with how they look. This makes me so frustrated to know that at that age, one has not come to grip with how they look. Why does body image have to be such a consuming thing? Do girls ever get to a point of being content? Will this always be a problem?

I don't want to get to the age of 50 and realize that I wasted years of time being so worried about the weight I am or what size clothes I fit into. It is hard with the society that we live in. I think that is part of the problem but the rest lies within. We or I need to continue to change my perception and not dwell on this. There are bigger things in life that should be of more concern.

Update

My life is really crazy at this point in time. I am trying to find a routine and get organized. So this blog may not be updated as often as I would like. But keep checkin' back.

FOUR/1

This guy(not the kid)....Erik....just got April fooooooooled! The joke was turned on him!!!!

GOTCHA!!!!

Seriously...

Seriously, has the bachelor turned into a talent show?!?!?!

Update on my week

It's been crazy busy!

Today I had two finals and my exit interview from the teaching program at Judson. Wow, my time there is soon coming to an end.

One of my dear friends had her first baby this week. It was fun to meet Blake, hold him, and see how his mommy was doing.

Next week I start my four week teaching experience for Judson. I will be teaching two subjects a day and assisting where needed. My commute will be a minimum of an hour each way, pray that God gives me patience!

I finished tutoring all my students this week. It is bitter sweet to see that come to an end.

Last week, we didn't do "Baja" night...I was happy to rekindle that this week. We even switched it to an earlier night because we all were craving it!

I have had a good week of exercising and staying on my good eating plan.

I can't wait for tomorrow...I want to sleep in and then catch up on all the shows that I didn't get a chance to watch.

I am thankful to my friends who have supported me through all of this stuff this week.

To a new week

Last week was not such a good week of staying on my healthy eating pattern...there were two holidays (St. Patty's Day and Easter) and a few other evenings of eating out where I made poor choices. I don't think all the salads and working out I did balanced it out.

Well thank goodness I have a fresh new week ahead of me to get back on track!!!

Say my name, say my name

Earlier this week I was out with some friends and were discussing the different ways that my last name gets pronounced and even my first name. It's crazy. We got some great laughs out of it!!!

Yesterday I went to pick up some Panda Express (can't stand their food) for my sister. As I paid with my credit card, the man behind the counter said "thank you ms. _____ and then one of the funny pronunciations came out of his mouth. I am going to try to explain to you how he said it.

Say the word geese. Now take how you say the "gee" in "geese" and add zzo to the end of it. Now say it all together and really emphasize the "ee"s. You got it?!

You may not think it is even funny, but I almost busted out laughing!!

Deep thoughts by Gina

Ok, well they are not really that deep, but just what's been on my mind lately.

Many of you know that I have been thinking about moving to California. I have talked about it for the past few months, but now as I begin the process of applying for jobs the reality of finding a job and home are settling in.

In previous posts I have mentioned that I think about California on a daily basis. This thought has began to increase. When I see a team from CA, I want them to win or a girl who is on the bachelor and is from CA, I want her to win...the other night I spent the night at my friends house and the clock in the room was 2 hours behind and I thought of CA time. I know that all of this might sound strange, but there is a reason why this state is always on my mind.

Recently I have begun to doubt why I think about it so much. Maybe it is just an infatuation or maybe because the weather sucks here and is way better there or ...But I can't help but think that God has a plan for me and at some point going to California might be a part of it. I need to hold fast to it and see what happens.

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and future", declares the Lord.

I was deceived

Today as I drove to church and back, the sun was shining and I was a bit warm in my car. So I cracked the sun roof and enjoyed the beautiful change in weather. With the sun shining, I just feel different and better.

Since we are going on a family vacation in a few months, I knew that I needed to step up my work out routine and "diet". With that said, I thought I would put in an extra workout today. After a healthy lunch I threw on a sweatshirt and pants and decided to take my workout outside. As soon as I walked out the door, it was freezing cold. My walk soon turned into a jog because all I could think about was getting warm. Then my lungs started killing me, every breath was painful. In my head I just wanted to turn around and give up. But I pushed through the pain, started walking again, and after 15 minutes, the breathing wasn't so painful. Until, my way back when I was walking against the wind. AHHH!

I think I will continue to use the treadmill until it is significantly warmer out. How do those people run outside during the winter? I must have done something wrong.

Summer Song

For the past few years there seems to be a song that comes out in the spring and then by summer it is THE song. You know the one that you crank up the volume to and drive with your windows down and can't stop dancing too. Last summer for me it was this song and at times I still can't sit still when I hear it. Enjoy... http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?vid=157700



What will this summer's song be? I am anxious to know.

My little getaway

This past Friday I headed to Arizona for a long weekend. I really needed a break from life here. I was visiting my college roommate, Tracy. We lived together all 4 years and now she is married and has 3 kids of her own.

My time there was pretty busy. I was able to see the area where the Superbowl was held, it's called Westlake. We walked around the stores, had coffee outside in the 70 degree heat, and sat and listened to a girl perform for the spectators. Another day we took a 3 1/2 hour hike up a mountain with a 4, 2, and 1 year old. That was a crazy experience! We ate a picnic lunch at the top of it, threw rocks, searched for lizards, and used lots of patience with the kiddos!

It was fun to drive around and enjoy the warm breeze and take in the view of the mountains. It was quite peaceful. Tracy and I hit up a few malls and parks for the kids. A huge highlight was getting the pleasure to eat at In-N-Out 2 times while I was there!!! Those burgers, fries, and shakes are too good to pass up if you are by one.

One night I met up with my best friend from high school. We lost contact over the years and I hadn't seen her in 12 years. So that was great fun getting to hang out with her and catch up on life.

While I was there, I forgot what it was like to be cold since I got a bit burnt and were outside all the time. I soon remembered as I walked off the plane and felt that cold draft come before I even got outside. Thankfully spring will be here next week...right?!?!

Chicks, cars, and service men

Story#1

For about 2 weeks I needed to get a few things for my car. The first necessary component was purchasing new tires. This is quite a costly endeavour but it had to be done. I was recommended to try this tire shop because they had great deals. I am always looking for a bargain so I headed right over. The sales guy was informative and was ranting and raving about a particular tire. So I decided to go with his suggestion. Four days later I am driving up to Elgin at 6:30 a.m. and my tire pressure light goes on in the car. I pull over and check everything out...no flat...that was good news. So I would do what any normal person does and head to a gas station to check the tire pressure and fill up on air. After I do that I reset the tire pressure light and I am good to go.

Later that night I am driving home and what starts flashing and ringing...the low tire pressure light. Now I didn't mind it the first time because with the cold air and what not the pressure drops, but twice in the same day was not cool. Unfortunately the tire shop wasn't open or I would have gone straight there. So the next day I take it there and the same guy who sold me my tires is assisting me. He runs out to the car and checks the tire pressure and told me that I put 2 pounds extra in a few of the tires. I am thinking, big deal. So he continually repeats his story and is trying to tell me that the light is on because there is too much air. HELLO....I am not an idiot. The light in my car doesn't go on because of too much air but because of too little. Then he says, but one of them is below the air level, would you like us to look at it? Hell yes I want you to look at it. So after sitting for over an hour another guy comes to talk to me. The way he started the conversation was in a way that he was accusing me that I did something wrong. After getting some clarification, he ended up saying that when I got the tires put on the car the worker must have forgotten to put the seal around my tire and scrape my rim. I wasn't too happy to hear that they just didn't do the appropriate work after I paid them a chunk of change.

Story #2

The next thing I needed to buy were some windshield wipers. I had gone to Walmart to purchase them (they would be about $13), but they were out of the size I needed. I did my research and knew what size and which brand were recommended for my car. On my way to school I thought if I saw any auto stores I would stop in and pick up the wipers. So I headed into this auto store where a worker was more than happy to assist me. He looked up in his computer my car type and all that to find the info, despite me already telling him the size and brand that was needed. (I am aware that I don't need that particular brand, most will do). So I see him bring up a whole listing of wipers and then tells me that ones I need will cost me $25. I said well is there anything cheaper and he said only the plastic ones for $3.

Ok, now I am ticked off. This is twice in a week where I feel like it is one of those situations where men are trying to rip me off or not do their job because I am a woman and don't know what they are talking about. I wanted to go over and smack some sense into these workers. Needless to say I didn't purchase any wipers from that store.

Spring will soon be here

With baseball season approaching soon, I can't help but think that spring is on the way. For the past two years I have had the privilege of attending many Chicago White Sox games, since my dad purchased season tickets. I loved going down to chi town, grabbing some great Maxwell Street food, creating memories with friends and family, and enjoying a beautiful day at the game.

This year no season tickets were bought, so this wonderful experience won't occur as much, but I still go to a few games. I might even hit up some spring training which would be fun! Go Sox!

Manners, people...C'mon

Some people just don't say please or thank you and frankly, I think it is rude!! Why can't you be polite and acknowledge when someone did something for you or you are requesting something to be done?

I went to the store and purchased one item but bought 6 of them. So when the clerk told me the price I informed her that I bought more than that. She simply said, oh they must have been stuck together and carried on with her business. Not a thank you or I appreciate your honesty. People like her make me not want to speak up next time and just rip the store off since it was their mistake to begin with.

A please or thank you or even a friendly smile can go a long way!!!!

GREAT NEWS!

I passed my APT state exam for my IL teaching certificate. YES!!!! I cannot tell you how relieved I was to find out that I passed. Let me tell you the anxiety I was experiencing all day, well pretty much sucked. To find out that I don't have to retake it and relive stress, headaches, and pressure was such a relief!

Thank you all for your prayers, support, and encouragement...I wouldn't have made it through with out you. Now to just finish up classes and teach for a month and have that license. The end is in sight.

Change

Sometimes I embrace it, sometimes I am scared of it, sometimes I look forward to it, sometimes it makes me anxious, sometimes I don't know how to handle it, and sometimes it confuses me.

This is the season I am in.

Next holiday

Valentine's Day is less than a week away! A great idea for a little treat to give to coworkers, your child's class of students, or friends and family are cupcakes!!! It is not too late to order gourmet cupcakes. Two festive cupcake that go well with Valentines Day are "White Chocolate Raspberry" and "Double Chocolate". Check out www.crazydeliciouscupcakes.com to see more flavors and how to order.

xoxoxoxo

Complete Randomness

I am wondering when I can hang up the boots for the winter! I think we've gotten plenty of snow this winter....

It is frustrating when I have worked hard on eating healthy and working out and have plateaued for a month. I am trying to stay positive, but sometimes when you don't see the results I am ready to give up.

I feel like I am out of clothes to wear this winter. As a girl, I go through this a couple of times a year. Yet I do have a whole closet full of great clothes. This winter I have not been interested in wearing any my sweaters so my wardrobe is limited. So what needs to happen? Spring needs to come!

And there looks like a bunch of good movies coming out on Valentine's Day. Wahoo!

State exam

At school today I was talking with a professor about taking my final state exam this past Saturday. Ok, the exam was KILLER hard. Many people I spoke with that had already taken the exam said that it was a breeze and nothing to worry about. But since I know that I take tests differently and like to be super prepared, I still went all out by purchasing a study guide and questioning those who have already taken the exam. Going in I felt very prepared and like I was ready to conquer. Those feelings soon changed as I began reading the questions. I struggled through the entire thing! It was draining, frustrating, and time consuming. While I was testing I couldn't help but think about those who said that it was a piece of cake. Did I miss something? Did I study the wrong thing? Where did I go wrong? Why do I have to be the only one not getting this test? I felt that I was lacking or inadequate.

As I was sharing some of my experience with this professor she told me that she heard from several others that the exam was hard too! When she said this, I was so relieved. I was grateful to hear that I wasn't the only one who had a difficult time. I almost wanted to kiss her because I felt so comforted. I was not alone in how I was feeling or what I experienced. I was so thankful and this put me at ease. So when I get the results back in a month and find out that I might have to retake it, I won't feel stupid, alone, or that I failed.

A year ago

It is weird to think that one year ago the Bears were headed to the Superbowl. That was such an exciting time for Chicago and for me (since I love football). I can remember the rush of feelings and anxiousness of Superbowl Sunday approaching. At the time I was teaching and the Friday before the big game everything in class was related to football; food, activities, attire... We had so much fun! As this years Superbowl approaches, there is not much excitement or anticipation. I will most likely watch the game and I am hoping for not an annihilation but for some competition.

But overall, I really do wish the Bears were in it again.

If you wouldn't mind

Tomorrow is the big day! My last state exam. I am anxious, nervous, can't wait until it is finished, feel slightly confident, thankful it will be over tomorrow...As I have reminded myself this week by praying and reaffirming myself with Scripture please pray that God will give me peace, confidence, and wisdom in order that I can accomplish this task in front of me (pray that I pass too!).

Thanks

LIFE.....

I find it interesting how through out your life you go through seasons. Some are hard and some are easy. Some are enjoyable and some are sad. I am in a season of being stretched and tested. It is exhausting, frustrating, and draining, but with out sounding too "Christiany", I am glad that my hope is in Christ. I know that when I come out of this season, I will be strong and well equipped for the next step in God's plan. I am constantly reminding myself to take one day at a time. And I repeatedly say to myself that God has a plan for my life, one to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me a hope and future. Those words I have close to my heart. Sometimes songs speak more clearly than I can express, some lyrics that I find myself singing are "Oh no You never let go, through the calm and through the storm, oh no You never let go every high and every low, oh no You never let, Lord, You never let go of me...There will be an end to these troubles, but until that day comes, still I will praise You!"

TV/movies

Kind of funny that the GB and NYG game was played in 24 below temps and the Superbowl will be played in the 60s. I would have enjoyed seeing the Packers play the Pats, but I do like that both Manning brothers play in back to back Superbowl games.

A part of me is missing, since 24 is not on!

"27 Dresses"....I loved!!!! A great chick flick to start off my year.

There are no shows on this season that I am super excited about. I am anxiously waiting for the return of "The Hills"! I am also looking forward to "Big Brother" and "The Inferno or Gauntlet" (whatever MTV is calling it) starting up again.

Driving

Do you ever wonder how you get from one place to the next? I can't figure out how my foot knows the exact pressure to put on the gas pedal in order to obtain a certain speed and stay at that limit, which eliminates me from looking at the speedometer. Does it ever seem to you like your car just knows where it is going? There have been days where I am totally preoccupied with my thoughts but end up where I need to be and wonder, how in the world did that happen?

Random thoughts....

Update

School is starting up again this week. I am not looking forward to this, but I realize that it gets to me closer to the end of my school journey and boy does that bring a smile to my face! So I will be taking 3 classes and in the midst of that preparing to take my final state exam.

I feel blessed to be able to have a job where I work when I can, that would be nannying and tutoring. An exciting thing happened this past week. A family called and asked me to tutor their child, but what is so great is that the class that I took last semester are the some of the exact tools I needed to assist this student. I am not sure I would have been able to help this student to the fullest, but now I feel confident and have an idea of where to begin and what to do. Yeah!

Back on track

After being sick for about a week and my body recovering, I have not been able to work out. Now granted, I couldn't imagine exercising while not feeling well, but then on the road to recovery I kind of enjoyed skipping out on my workout. Isn't it easy to fall out of a habit instead of picking one up...usually?

Since I am feeling great, I knew that it was time to get back into the workout routine. In a weird way I was kind of looking forward to it because my body was use to it and I knew that it will help me stay healthy and get fit. This morning I did it. And boy, it felt good. Tomorrow I may be a little sore, but that doesn't bother me one bit. These words of "looking forward" to a workout I thought would NEVER come out of my mouth. Since this habit has now been in place for a while it wasn't nearly as bad to get back into this routine.

Here we go again!

There were 3 major state exams that I needed to take while I am finishing my state certification. In November I took 2 of them and I just decided to take the 3rd one at the end of January. They are crazy intense and don't want to take it so soon, but I am also thinking that I will be done and over with them and won't have to think about it again, if all goes well. If you think of me pray that God would give me wisdom and peace! I am also hoping that my study guide will come quickly so I can get a jump on the action!!!

Money IS the root of all evil

There are days when this phrase is ringing in my ears loud and clear. Today happens to be one of those days!!! If anyone knows me, they know that I am a very careful spender...some may even call me cheap. I am very aware of how much money I have and I like to make smart decisions on how to spend my hard earned money. As a student I am working hard to survive and enjoy life. There are days like today that I just wish I didn't have to worry about every freaking nickel, penny, and dime!

I am dreaming of the day when I don't have to decide between getting a Starbucks drink or picking up fast food for lunch. I am dreaming of the day when I can go on a vacation and not have had to save up for it over a few months. I am dreaming of the day when I can go shopping a drop a few hundred dollars and it not be a problem. I am dreaming of the day when I don't have to worry about money. I guess I will have to keep dreaming. I am reminded that all these "dreams" are wants and things that I don't have to have but sure would love to have and enjoy. I don't think God has planned my life to always have to live paycheck to paycheck. I am not doubting that living this way has taught me things like good spending habits, how to live debt free...but there will come a day (I am confident of this, but don't have a clue how it will happen) when I will be able to celebrate my dream!

A penny for your thoughts.

Happy New Year

I would like to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! My new year is starting off right with a drink and treat from Starbucks! Although it is sad to see that their holiday cups are gone, something new and fresh lies ahead.


Last year I made a list of things I would like to accomplish through out the year. I am pleased to say that I accomplished most of them. I really like this idea and am going to try it again for 2008. Some of the things might be ones from last year (I liked them so well I couldn't get rid of them) but there are a few new ones in there too.


-make a new friend
-take a trip to Vegas for my birthday
-be more consistent with my God time
-continue to work out 3 times a week
-take a risk
-go parasailing
-help someone in need
-discover more of who I am and what that means
-keep my car cleaner


I may have forgotten a few...I will add them if I think of them. Have you made any "resolutions", what are they?

2007

I enjoy looking back through the year and going through all my memories. As I transfer things from my old calendar to my new one, I see how different my year was from previous ones. This past year was filled with a LOT of change, some that was good and some that I am still working through. There were definite high's and low's. I look forward to see where God places me and what new adventure lies in my future!

So many thoughts

As I have mentioned in past blogs, I went to California over the summer and fell in love (again) with being there. And then you know after you are on a vacation you think about it for a while wishing you were back in that place once again?! That happened to me!! And then when I would watch shows that had scenery from Cali and all those thoughts and feelings would be triggered. In addition to that, for the past 3 weeks I have thought about California EVERY single day. I miss seeing the ocean, the mountains, the warm weather, and the atmosphere. I have thought about what it would be like to live and work out there. This would be a big change and not as easy as it may seem.

I haven't talked about my thoughts much because in my world it is kind of tricky. Do you have any family or friends that put expectations on you and if you don't fufill them in some way you disappoint them? I am well aware that I live my life and that this is their boundary issue, but these impressions still haunt me a bit. Yet I don't want these things to hinder me from living my life. I don't want to live by fear or regrets.

I can't wait to see what will happen with my life.

Blessings

I would like to wish all my family and friends (and whoever else reads this) a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! I pray that you would enjoy this important day to its fullest. Blessings to you on this Christmas Day!

Movie time

Despite how busy getting ready for Christmas can be, it is utterly important to get in a few flicks. This past week I saw "National Treasure" (for the first time), "National Treasure 2", and "American Gangster". So far so good. I am looking forward to watching a bunch more over my break...finally it looks like some decent chick flicks have come out as well!!!!!

Have you seen anything lately that you think is worth my time to check out?????

Why

What is it about the holidays that bring about the following. As a single, available girl I do pretty well with balancing the whole fact that I do not have that special someone in my life. I go about my business, enjoy life, work towards my goals, and I am not consumed and don't have that feeling of doom lingering over me since I am not currently dating (I know some that do). But for some reason around the holidays that all gets thrown out the window. Why? I would thoroughly love to have those warm fuzzy feelings and contemptment with that "person" (I can hear some of you now, "it doesn't look like it appears" or "that will fade" blah blah blah, let me enjoy it for a time). But that is not going to happen before Christmas in three days. So I will seize the moment and enjoy my time now with my family and friends and work through those feelings that won't be met. I know that one of these holidays these feelings will be met and I look forward to that day.

A new tradition...that I LOVE!

This family is near and dear to me!!! I have been watching these four boys for almost two years. Through that time I have become not only very close to Jordan, Taylor, Dylan, and Kode, but also super good friends with Erik and Ang. We took a road trip to California this summer, which was an absolute blast. So many stories to tell and laughs to laugh! One of the places we ate at a few times and enjoyed while we were out there was Baja Fresh.

For the past few months, we have made a tradition of eating Baja one night a week and just hanging out together. I thoroughly look forward to this time of rough housing, laughing, eating, catching up on life, having good conversation, watching movies, or just chillin'! I love this time to reconnect after whatever any of us have been through that week. I continue to look forward to these Baja nights as each week comes!

As I write this I am reminded of one of my New Years resolutions from this year which was

Christmas in a week

Christmas is such an exciting time of year! I love it. And what I have really enjoyed this year is starting to celebrate and enjoy the Christmas season early. So many people had their lights up earlier than normal or maybe they usually have them up but now they turned them on earlier. And listening to Christmas music even before Thanksgiving has really gotten me in the mood. I have been shopping and wrapping and boy it is just fun...and exhausting. What I can't seem to get is, how I wait in anticipation for this great celebration, yet it doesn't feel like Christmas will be in a week. I want to soak every second up and remember what this time is really all about!!!

Good News!!!

Classes were canceled for me today! I am thrilled. Not only do I not have to go, but we don't have to make the day up. What a relief to not have to drive in this ice storm. What I am most excited about is getting all those things done around the house that I just haven't had time for lately like: organizing my closet, going through piles of paper, watching a movie, finishing up my homework, and wrapping Christmas gifts. Some of this doesn't sound like fun, but I can't wait to do it and feel like so accomplished.

I pray that all of you make it safe in wherever you need to go today!

Yippeee

I am pleased to announce that I passed BOTH state exams for teaching. WAHOOOO!!!!!!! I was pleasantly surprised by the results. Thank you to those who prayed and encouraged me, I couldn't have done it without you!!!! Two tests down, one to go.

Late bloomer

Text messaging...I do it all the time now. Before I use to hate it! I thought it was so rude when people would just whip out their phone and text. (I do think there is tact on how and when to text...we'll save that for another time.) And now, I find myself loving it. It has come in handy so many times, I love being able to communicate when I can't talk on the phone. It's great. I know, I am way behind the times, but I guess it's better late than never.

On my phone, I don't have one of those nifty full keyboards, I have to wait forever to spell some words. So to help me we all "create" words that aren't spelled correctly but say what we are trying to communicate. I have found that this has come in handy when taking notes at school. It's crazy I am using numbers in my note taking and funny abbreviations. If someone looked at my school notes they would laugh. An interesting thing is that some of it is carrying over into how I am typing up papers...now this is bad. I have to make a conscious thought sometimes to spell a word properly instead of in "text" format.

A habit I am trying to be more careful about is texting while I am driving. It's a hard one to break, but I just need to pick more appropriate times to text.

Bear Down Chicago Bears...

Oh my gosh!!!!!!!! Today I went to the Bears game. It was AMAZING!!! In case you do not know they played the Denver Broncos. A friend of mine gave me the tickets and we sat on the 50 yard line, 17 rows from the field. We sat with all of the coaches wives and their families. I have never been so close to that field (and probably will never get a chance to sit that close again)! I mean you could actually see the players, they weren't miniatures...which is what I am use when I sit in the nose bleed section.

The first half was good, the game was back and forth with not a lot of action. I think I was in shock during the first part on just how close we were to the field and the excitement of the game. Then the second half started and boy if you missed the first few minutes of the third quarter you should be kicking yourself! Hester runs a return back for a TD. And then a few minutes later he runs another return back for another TD. The guy is a maniac!!!

Thank goodness for the special teams because they did a tremendous job in keeping the score close. During the fourth quarter I don't think I ever sat down. The game was intense and nerve racking towards the end. Everyone was so pumped to have tied the score at the end of the game to go into overtime...and the rest is history. Sexy Rexy throws a long past to Clark who has hands like glue and bam we are in field position for a field goal. And few...no interceptions or fumbles and the Bears go on to win the game.

WOW!!!! That was the most exciting game ever!!!! Thanks for the tickets (you know who you are).

Something to ponder....

I have always wondered this....http://dating.personals.yahoo.com/singles/datingtips/55223/when-shes-hot-but-hes-not;_ylc=X3oDMTFybmFnN3FnBF9TAzI3MTYxNDkEc2VjA2ZwX3RvZGF5BHNsawN3aGVuLXNoZXMtaG90LWJ1dC1oZXMtbm90BHp6A2Fi
Why is this?????

Turkey time!

Happy Thanksgiving you all!!!! I am so thankful for each and everyone of you this season!

As I was sitting thinking about what this day means, I couldn't help but be reminded of God's love for me (as cliche as that may sound, it's true). I am thankful for His grace that He gives me each day. I continually make mistakes but yet He loves me in spite of them. Thank you God that "from the broken earth, flowers come up, pushing through the dirt (Wholly Yours, by David Crowder)!!!" You use me in any shape I am in and you help mold me into who and what you want me to be.

Schools in session

I am officially back in college. Class started Monday and 3 weeks from Wednesday I should be all finished. It is going to go by so fast!!! Despite the intense work load, I think I am really going to enjoy this reading diagnosis class! It is practical and I can apply it to the students I am currently tutoring. Some aspects will be stretching because they are new, but in the big picture this will be very beneficial for my career.

Today we had our first pop quiz...this teacher doesn't mess around. One day of class and then boom. And it is weird to think, you miss one class and really it's like you are missing a whole week of class.

Ideas...anyone??????

Help please!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are no good "toys" coming out this year. There is nothing that my 11 year old brother would like. So, I have been racking my brain and at the mall looking for some Christmas gift ideas for him. Some of his interests are: playing basketball, skateboarding, golfing, the White Sox, the Bears, the Wii, and his ipod. Does anyone have any suggestions on what to get him?

Tis the Season

This past week I watched 2 Christmas movies. In years past, I don't know if I've even watched one, except for the year that "Elf"came out. The movies that I watched were "Deck the Halls" and "Jingle All the Way". I gotta tell you, there is something about watching Christmas movies that gets me even more excited for Christmas. Where's the snow? When can I go ice skating? Christmas is only 6 weeks away! I need to get a move on the shopping, menu planning....

A new song

When I work out in the morning, NOTHING good is on T.V., so I end up watching music videos. Believe me, this is not a highlight since I am repulsed by most of them. Although, Fergie's song "Clumsy" I think is a very unique and creative and clean video.

Well there is a song that has been playing and when MTV gives the artist and other info, it always says "Undefined". It drove me crazy, because I couldn't find out who the band was or what the name of the song was. BUT, today I searched high and low and found it.

I can't believe...it was Linkin Park. To me, they have a different sound so I didn't recognize it. I love this song "Shadow of the Day"...not sure about the video.

Check out the song and video http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?id=1518072&vid=182628
and let me know what you think.

I haven't heard this on the radio yet, why not?

Stress

I have been under an amazing amount of stress lately. There is just a TON of things that I need to get done along with normal life activities. I have been tested and stretched beyond measure. My shoulders are a disaster because I hold my stress in there. What is funny is that I thought I was doing things correctly...working out, deep breathing, praying, listening to soothing music, getting enough sleep...Sometimes I guess that just doesn't cut it. I wonder what I could have done differently.

After this weekend, I assumed that my stress levels would reduce, but it seems as though I cannot "unwind". With the holidays being around the corner, I am concerned. I LOVE to enjoy these seasons in all ways possible. Seeing Christmas decorations in the stores and hearing Christmas music on the radio is totally getting me excited. BUT...How am I going to do it? How will I fit everything in and let alone enjoy every second of it.

Any ideas on how to not allow stress to take over my mind or my body?

Attire

This week I ran into a couple of interesting things.

1. The other day I was listening to the radio and they were talking about people who wear cowboy boots...other than cowboys. Their stance was that people who wear them are trying to make a statement. The conclusion was that if you wear cowboy boots are you good in bed. Then listeners called in to share their thoughts on other items that people wear that say the same thing. I started thinking and said, ok I know no one who wears cowboy boots. Then this past week I encountered 2 people that I know who wore them. I about bust out laughing, wondering if they knew the connotation behind the boots. I will never look at cowboy boots the same.

2. This was just gross. I saw a man who was wearing normal shorts to the knee but they were sweats. Ok, fine...maybe he just worked out or something. The thing that was alarming was when he turned around you could tell me wasn't wearing underwear, the shorts were going right up his crack. Men go commando too????? Yikes. And yes he turned around again and it was so obvious and GROSS!!! Put on some boxers, briefs, even whitie tighties!!!!!

You just never know

If you don't already know, I am not a big fan of Christian music. I enjoy some really good worship stuff and maybe a few others, but that is about it. (I won't go into why I think this way.)

To my surprise, Christian music and even Christian radio helped me keep the right perspective and attitude this past week. Let me explain.

One day last week I showed up to work and found out that I was going to have a difficult day ahead of me. A million negative thoughts were running through my head...I was trying to reorganize my thought pattern. And then I heard a familiar song. The family had a Christian radio station playing in all of the rooms of the house. It was great hearing some "words of wisdom" to help me and not allow me to let my thoughts and frustrations take over how I was thinking or acting. And for the record, this family isn't a "church" family.

Over the weekend I decided to have my "worship" play list from my ipod going while I studied or worked at my computer. This brought such a calmness to me and helped remind me what life and circumstances is all about.

I guess what I am saying is that despite my thoughts about Christian music, there is a definite time and place that it can minister to my soul, help me control my thoughts, and just remind me that there is more to life than what we have here.

I am going to try to be more open minded about Christian music. We'll see what happens.

Is this your dad?

I saw this clip on T.V. yesterday and was laughing so hard. I would be terrified if my father decided to do this (which he would only participate in to embarrass us kids). They go around performing at parades. Watch the video below and you will see what I mean.

Since they are in Illinois, next time there is a parade, I may need to go check this site out!

Guitar Hero for the Wii

Today my brother got guitar hero. I have not really been into video games since super mario brothers and contra which was back in junior high. But, I have enjoyed playing the wii here and there. Something I always wanted to learn how to do was to play the guitar. Unfortunately, I just don't have the patience to do it.

As my brothers were glued to playing guitar hero for most of the afternoon, I thought I'd give it a try. I had a lot of fun playing it, man even my fingers were a bit sore. A lot of the music is good because it is from when I was growing up or songs that I enjoy like "Hit Me With Your Best Shot" or songs from "Smashing Pumpkins" and "The Killers".

I don't see myself playing this on a regular basis, but it is fun to act like you really know how to play the guitar. Considering that other interactive games like Dance Dance Revolution are nearly impossible for me to get the hang of.

I miss it

This morning while I was working out, the video for "Mr. Brightside" by The Killers was playing. Whenever I hear any songs from that album I sing along and never get tired of hearing them. While I was listening, this song brought me back to a place.

I was in culinary school when this album came out. I purchased it and can remember playing it at school while we planned a culinary event. Then those thoughts led me to when I worked in Atwaters. The following are many thoughts I had while thinking about working in that great restaurant: There were so many firsts for me while I was there, ipod, shot, working in a restaurant...I remember getting a second after preparing a few dishes and running out into the bar to check on the score of the White Sox World Series, or taking the blame for a co-workers dumb mistakes or wondering how did I ever get the opportunity to work in a 4 diamond restaurant or just getting off work super late and going out or getting my new car or practicing my spanish and learning all kinds of new words.

The thing I miss the most is working with such a uniquely talented, diversified group of people who loved and accepted you.

It made me sad to think about these good times and to not be a part of them any longer. Maybe some day I will be back using my talents in the kitchen, but for now I am on another journey.

Blog tagged?

I have never heard of such a thing, but because my friend Sharon tagged me, I am responding to her challenge. And in return, I am tagging Angela. (Some of my friends need to get blogs or personal blogs so I can tag them too.) I am suppose to share 7 facts about myself that you don't know.

1. I broke my arm 2 times in elementary school.

2. Two of my favorite shows to watch when I was in high school were "Ricki Lake" and "A Different World".

3. A few days ago I took my 14 year old sister driving in my (stick shift) car.

4. I want to try parasailing so bad!!!

5. I am scared and nervous to date and get married.

6. I will probably never have pets in my house unless its a fish.

7. I am not ready to turn in my flip flops for the fall and winter weather we are having.

A fresh start

Oh YEAH!!!!

I am so excited, thankful, and relieved that today is a new day and the beginning of a new week. Last week was completely out of control in so many ways, shapes, and forms. I am refreshed and have a new outlook, hope, and excitement (which to be honest, I am a bit surprised). I am expecting great things to happen today and this week despite being in the midst of my last 2 weeks to study and prepare for my tests.

Thanks God that you care about all the details of my life, you pour out your favor, and are willing to carry me through this season!!!

Movies

I am suppose to watch these movies from school for one of my classes. When my prof handed them to me, one of the was a VHS and the other was a DVD. I was thinking in my head, are you kidding me? Who the heck has a machine to play a VHS tape? After racking my brain I recalled an old T.V. that I got when I graduated from highschool, it was one that had the tape thing built into the T.V.. I gladly found this unit at my parents house.

Can I just tell you how weird it was watching it. You can hear the tape moving forward and then when you stop it, it makes a big noise. I forgot how noisy it was. And then...you have to rewind it and man that takes a long time.

One week from tonight "Run's House" is back on...YEAH!

A dreaded day

I didn't think my day would be so frustrating, overwhelming, and full of emotion.

I am in the midst of studying for 2 huge exams. They are each 5 hours long and I will take both of them in about 3 weeks. I have studied for the first test and today I began reading the objectives for the 2nd one. I began to realize that I really have to study A LOT for this test because they are covering information that I am not very familiar with.

I began highlighting all of the things that I needed to get books on or research online so that I could refresh my memory. I began to wonder how I was to get all of this accomplished let alone study for the test. I began to doubt my ability. I have never considered myself "smart", people say oh well you have 2 degrees. That doesn't mean a dang thing, I had to work really hard for those, school/learning does not come easy to me. Plus things don't stick, I can learn something for a test and then it goes in one ear and out the other.

Here's the other problem, I have to know all these concepts...but I don't have a clue of the specifics. How indepth do I study these topics? Is it a general overview or what? So needless to say I lost a little control of myself. I was feeling overwhelmed and wondering how I would get all of this crap done plus all the other **** I have to do. I was pissed, angry, sad, confused, irritated...just emotional.

I hung out at the library this afternoon, oh that is my favorite place (not) searching for books, until I decided to ask for help. To my surprise this woman found some helpful study guides for me to purchase. Borders here I come. I was thankful to find a book, I don't even care that I don't have the money to get it. It will be well worth it.

Yes, I am still overwhelmed, but I feel now as though I have a direction and a map to follow. These next few weeks will be hell. I keep reminding myself that this is only temporary, God will help me, the Holy Spirit will guide me, and I will make it!!!!

Don't do enough

One of the things that I really enjoy doing is traveling. There is nothing better than seeing a new part of the world, experiencing a new culture, tasting some delicious cuisine...Unfortunately I don't get to partake in this hobby very often. What hit me tonight was that if I wait around for the right friend to take a trip with me or when I have enough money or whatever, precious time is wasting away. In a book that I am reading the author talks about how she has taken several trips by herself and how rewarding and healthy it is. I have taken one trip by myself (to Vegas) and enjoyed it. I was able to eat whenever, whatever, and wherever I wanted, relax when I wanted, and do whatever the heck I wanted. With that said, I am being encouraged to do the unthinkable and go on my own vacation. Off to look for flights!!!!

Oh the weather outside is....

I am trying to get some studying done for these HUGE tests that I have to take in a few weeks. I really do love being in my sweats with a blanket on in the midst of this abrupt cold weather we are having. With these chilly temps, I can't help but think of Thanksgiving and Christmas. I just love those times of the year. So many houses are decorated with their fall leaves, pumpkins, and harvest signs...I am definitely in the mood for these holidays. Oh the great food, good feelings, terrific shopping, being with family...but I need to also just enjoy the moment I am in right now and not wish it away.

A funny from a 2 year old

So today I started nanying for a family that I had worked for earlier this year. It was great to see the kids, they gave me such a GREAT welcome...I felt so loved. The boys were showing me all the new things in the house. One of them being a new refrigerator in the bar. I was talking with the two year old and I said wow, everything lays down in this fridge, none of the drinks stand up. His reply was, they are lying down because they are tired.

What a cutie!!!

SNF

Tonight I had a blast watching the Bears game with some of my most dear friends! What a game. The first half seemed a bit depressing to watch and to be honest I didn't think the Bears would turn it around, BUT they sure did. What was it, twenty points in the 4th qtr and we held the Packers to only 12 rushing yards after the 1st quarter. WOW!!!!! The last play of the game was a nail biter. I am so glad that we are 2-3 and not 1-4. Come on Bears, lets continue to win!!!!

Degrees

As I begin my adventure back to school I can't help but think...I am in school again? Then I look at the big picture and say that after school I will be able to get a job, have more opportunities, and be back on salary. (This will be great!!!) There is this little bit in me that makes me annoyed to think that after going to college, a couple of times, there are people who have never finished or even attended college who make more money than I will ever make. How does that work? Am I just in the wrong fields? It just doesn't seem fair...but I am sure that most of them have worked really hard to get where they are at so I have to acknowledge that fact.

Personal Space

I am confused why people don't understand or respect the concept of personal space. Lets say I go outside to make a phone call, I am removing myself from others to have some privacy. What happens when people don't follow give me my privacy? How do I make this boundary clearer??????

Empty void

Over the summer I had the opportunity to go to California for 2 1/2 weeks. We hung out in southern part just outside L.A., Thousand Oaks. Most of our days were spent at Zuma Beach in Malibu. We also went to Beverly Hills, Redondo, and Santa Monica. It was absolutely gorgeous there!!! In one place there was the ocean, warmth, and the mountains. I loved how different it was from here.

There are multiple times a week I think or dream about going back to California. I have contemplated moving out there and maybe I will after I am done with school. It would be sad to leave my family and friends but I don't want to live in a state of fear or regret. What is a girl to do?

A missing part

This past weekend I was making cupcakes for a birthday order that came in. My cupcake business has been quiet lately since I am taking a break from it to focus on school stuff. I just have to say that I really missed making my crazy delicious treats. It made me sad to put this on hold. I do love the culinary side in me and I wonder how after I complete school my teaching degree and culinary degree will mesh!!!!!

It's been a long while

If you've checked this blog recently, you will find that I have been non-existent for 3 months. I truly thought the blog had died, but I am going to give it a shot again. Sometimes I feel like there is just nothing to say.

After having a relaxing summer and an unusual start to the fall here I am. I was in a place of uncertainty and confusion. I don't think I am out of it, but what I do know is that for the next 9 months I will be a college student. Yes, back to school I go. I will be attending Judson University (used to be Judson College) to obtain my state teaching certificate and credentials. The staff, that I have met, and the program seem to be great!

I feel like Billy Madison..."back to school, back to school"!