Friday, May 30, 2008

While I'm away

There are a bunch of things to do still before I leave Saturday morning for my family vacation. I know it will all get done, but I'm feeling a bit stressed. Ugh!

I'm praying that while I'm away from "life" that God would reveal His next step for me, that I would know when I get back what I need to do, what doors to walk through... I would love it if when you think of me to join me in praying that too.


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Memorial Day Weekend

It was nice to have a long weekend. It was filled with work, relaxation, a barbeque, spending time outside, and running errands. My family and I leave for vacation in a few days and with this week being so busy it is going to fly by. I am trying to work as much as I can so I have some spending cash for the trip and then you know it's time to do the girlie stuff: manicure, pedicure...I have been waiting forever to do those. I am dreaming of the beach, good food, fun activities, and seeing new things. I wish I could be on a vacation all the time!!!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Soft, calm voice

As from previous posts it has been stated that my life is full of confusion right now. I am here to report some good news. Well, it's not that I found a job for the summer or a job for the fall or determined where I will be living or anything like that. What I do have to say is that God is faithful. At this point in my life, all I can cling onto is that God has a purpose and plan and to keep my eyes fixed on Him. Is that easy, hell NO?!?! But I continue to push through it. The other day I was listening to some worship music, and to those of you who know me are going to find this crazy, but I have been listening to Christian radio and worship music more frequently. Due to where I am at, I need to be reminded of who God is and what He is doing in my life on a regular basis so I don't go crazy, and Christian music is helping me with that.

Ok, back to what I was saying, a song came on and I was worshipping God with my hands raised towards Him (while I was driving) I was gently reminded to take one day at a time and that He will show me each and every day what I need to be doing and even maybe what I don't need to be doing. This helped put my thoughts, emotions, and actions at ease. Did it cure, but I remind myself of that time and hold onto that promise that God has for me. This was such a simple reminder that we have heard a million times, but this time I felt it and needed to apply it immediately!

This is a testing time and God is preparing me for something. He is refining me and molding me for something. I cannot wait to figure out what that is! My faith will be strengthened and I am thankful.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Goin' hollywood

So recently I have been interested in the some of the trends that are going on in Hollywood. My focus has been towards the "going out attire".

Now don't get me wrong, I really enjoy shopping and having my own cute style. But I feel the need to change or spice things up.

Those of you who know me, know that I am not a clubbin' girl or anything of that nature, BUT the style that is interesting me right now are the dresses (of course classy and not hoochie) that fit that scene. I would not purchase these because I have no need for them except to stare at them in my closet.

BUT I do. We are going on a family vacation...a cruise. We have to be dressed up for dinners. And guess what...the styles I have been following will be perfect for the trip! And I realized that I could use these for the birthday bash in Vegas in a few months. Double whammiiieeee!!!!

Today I found some adorable dresses and just purchasing them made me feel so sophisticated, trendy, my age, and ready to take on the world. I cannot wait to wear them! Now, I just need to get some great jewlery!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Happenings of Monday night

What a great night of tv last night!!! The Bachelor and Hills finale. It was so sad to see them come to an end.

How adorable is that Shayne! I am so glad that Matt picked her. I picture this couple to be so widely followed like the Bachelorette, Trista and Ryan. I do have to say if I was Shayne, I don't think I would like to be called monkey!

And to have to wait until Aug. 18 to watch the Hills again is going to kill me. What is it about that show that just hooks me in? Maybe it's just a bunch of girls living in LA, enjoying life, and having fun.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Keep on truckin'

I have come to realize that I DO NOT like the place I am at in life right here at the moment. I try really hard that whatever I am doing or wherever I may be to enjoy the moment, take in all that I can, and not wish anything away. Currently the opposite is true for me. This season that God has placed me in, is not one that I am enjoying. If this is a test, I am trying to push through but I feel like I am in quick sand, sinking further and further away.

I don't feel like myself now, my emotions are all over the board, I have a negative outlook at times, I expect things and my hopes are dashed since my expectations haven't been met, I have too many decisions to make, pressure is building up, I'm confused and lost, I feel like I have been let down...and the list goes on and on and on

God where are you?

I know you are there, right by my side, but I certainly don't feel you or see you.

Thursday, May 08, 2008


Usually I am way into the MTV show "The Real World" but this season I just haven't paid much attention to it. This morning when I was working out this show was on. Man, watching this made my work out go so fast, which was a huge added bonus. It definitely hooked my attention and so I figured I would watch the next episode which was tonight.

There is a guy on the show named Joey. He is a body builder who is huge, has battled with drugs and alcohol, and has poor self esteem. I know this is going to sound so cheezy and you can mock me all you want, but watching him breaks my heart!!!! To see past the physical appearance and see a person who is in so much pain was sad to see. He talks about his past and his family and how horrible it is. I was reminded that there are people all around who are struggling and going through a variety of issues. People have tough backgrounds, rough families, and sad situations. Even though on the outside it may seem that everything is grand, it may not be.

This is moving me to pray that they would find true hope.